Road Hockey to Conquer Cancer

This past Saturday i sang the national anthem for the PMH Road Hockey to Conquer Cancer tournament. It was so incredible to be sharing the stage with so many hockey legends, while being able to preform the national anthem to kick off the event.

Thank you very much to Paul Alofs for your kind words today on your blog!

“Last Saturday, The Princess Margaret Cancer Foundation hosted the 4th Annual Road Hockey to Conquer Cancer.  It was a phenomenal success with 1,387 players who formed 122 teams and raised a remarkable $2,219,000.  At the opening ceremony, Mr. Hockey, Paul Henderson, spoke about his courageous battle with cancer.  The absolute highlight of the opening ceremony was when Carley Allison sang the Canadian national anthem.  Carley was diagnosed in 2013 with an extremely rare sarcoma near her trachea.  She was successfully treated by Dr. Pat Gullane, one of the world’s great head and neck cancer surgeons and the leader here at Princess Margaret.  We also heard that Carley’s cancer had returned, this time in her lungs.  This incredibly courageous and inspirational first-year university student stood in front of a hushed crowd and sang a brilliant version of O Canada.  Courage is something we all talk about but it’s often difficult to define.  To me, I saw the definition of courage in the face of Carley Allison and heard the voice of courage as she sang.  Carley has an incredible family and circle of supporters who bring their passion and commitment to her treatment.  When I wrote the book on Passion Capital, I was thinking about courageous individuals like Carley Allison.    To top things off, she sang the national anthem at the ACC before the Leafs game on Sunday.  Courage, passion, and inspiration together in one very exceptional young lady.  Thanks Carley from all of us! “

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Getting things under control!

Today i met with an academic advisor to talk about what my options where regarding courses, since i have already, and will be missing lots of school. We decided that best option for me would be to put my courses online. I can still go to class if i am at school but if i am away there will be no penalty for my absence. I’m very excited that things are being worked out and i can have the flexibility to be home if i need to be.

As for how i am feeling… I have been ok these days. I struggle in the mornings to get out of bed, and sleeping is sometimes a challenge, but for the most part i’m pretty good during the day! Last night in the middle of the night i was a bit nauseous and i was having some trouble getting comfortable but I took my Anti nausea medication and i felt much better.

Some days when i’m at school i forget that i am sick, I wake up feeling not so good but then it goes away and i move on with my day. In some ways i can act just like any other normal student during the day. Its when the clock turns 9:00pm and i get the notification on my phone to take my chemo when it hits me. Its such a strange feeling. I will be at dinner with my friends, or hanging out with my friends and i have to go back to my room for a few minutes to take the chemo. Its just not something I ever imagined myself going through. But as i’ve said before, this is the situation and we need to deal with it head on. It doesn’t matter what it takes i know i will be better soon, its just a matter of time.

I will soon be having a needle biopsy to get a sample of the larger tumour pressing against my rib (which is not as painful anymore so i’m hoping its the medication working!!!) . I will keep everyone updated with the results

Love,

Carley <3

Back home!

Last night i came home from Kingston for a doctors appointment this morning. The appointment was with our oncologist to assess my fever and cold. I have been feeling much better over the last few days but still not great. We started the chemo again on Sunday night so that could be the reason i’m starting to feel not so great again.

These days i find there’s no way to describe how i feel. I get upset about everything and just feel like crying but then i look at the big picture and i realize, this is just going to be another battle i’m going to win. Its going to be another trophy to put up on the mantle. “Conquered cancer round 2.” I know those word are far from being said but i do know there will be a time when i say them. Its not going to be an easy fight, and i cant say id be able to do it alone, but with the help of my friends and family i know its possible.

xoxo Carley

Chemo Bomb?

While speaking with the doctor in Boston he said something that caught my attention. He explained chemo like it was a “bomb” and its used to kill anything and everything inside of you to kill the cancer. I have never heard anyone explain it like that before. It made it seem like the healthy parts of my body were being destroyed in the process but i guess thats true. They have to almost kill you to save your life. But this is all different then the chemo i’m on now. The chemo i am on now it a targeted therapy and is not doing as much damage to my healthy cells as traditional chemotherapy, which is probably why I wasn’t feeling the same effects as the last time I had chemo.

Its been a rough couple weeks since i got this cold and fever but things are starting to look better. My fever has gone down a lot and my energy levels are improving. I just cant wait to wake up one day and feel completely healthy. I know it was only 4 weeks ago i was feeling great but it feels like a lifetime ago.

Thank you everyone for all your love <3

Carley