sorry i haven’t posted in a long time i haven’t been feeling so well. Last week was not a good week for me, i barely got out of bed. Things are starting to get better and i am starting to come out of this “radiation funk.” Im not going to say this past week has been easy and that i just toughed through and i’m ok. But i will say that I did it! I completed the 5 days of extremely high intensity radiation and its OVER! I am so happy to have completed one step of the road to recovery though we don’t exactly know what the rest of the road entails. For now i am back on the chemotherapy pills and i am meeting with my oncologist today to see how well its working.
Lots of exciting things coming up! This friday (October 24th) the Queens mens hockey team has organized for the game against Guelph to be used to raise money and awareness for the Princess Margaret Foundation. I will also be singing the national anthem at the game! I will post 2 links of 2 articles that have come out about the event if anyone wants more information! Also! on November 1st i will be singing the National Anthem at the ACC! I am extremely excited since i got all the nerves out in the pre season game!
The effects of the chemo and radiation have been much different then last time i was treated. My radiation this time around was very close to my stomach so nausea has been my biggest issue. We have been trying to learn lots of natural remedies to control the nausea since the medication docent always do the trick. the chemo on the other hand has some really strange side effects. I am not loosing my hair but it is changing colour! The roots of my hair have turned white. It looks a bit weird but its much better then loosing my hair! I did pull my wigs out the other days though just for old times sake, and i have to say I look like a completely different person with my wig on! I completely forgot what i look like with long hair. It was definitely an emotional experience, but short hair is the least of my problems. I should be thankful to at least have hair but sometimes its hard.
I have the most wonderful group of supporters, and thats whats getting me through the hard days!
“never give up because you never know if the next try is going to be the one that works”
This past Saturday i sang the national anthem for the PMH Road Hockey to Conquer Cancer tournament. It was so incredible to be sharing the stage with so many hockey legends, while being able to preform the national anthem to kick off the event.
Thank you very much to Paul Alofs for your kind words today on your blog!
“Last Saturday, The Princess Margaret Cancer Foundation hosted the 4th Annual Road Hockey to Conquer Cancer. It was a phenomenal success with 1,387 players who formed 122 teams and raised a remarkable $2,219,000. At the opening ceremony, Mr. Hockey, Paul Henderson, spoke about his courageous battle with cancer. The absolute highlight of the opening ceremony was when Carley Allison sang the Canadian national anthem. Carley was diagnosed in 2013 with an extremely rare sarcoma near her trachea. She was successfully treated by Dr. Pat Gullane, one of the world’s great head and neck cancer surgeons and the leader here at Princess Margaret. We also heard that Carley’s cancer had returned, this time in her lungs. This incredibly courageous and inspirational first-year university student stood in front of a hushed crowd and sang a brilliant version of O Canada. Courage is something we all talk about but it’s often difficult to define. To me, I saw the definition of courage in the face of Carley Allison and heard the voice of courage as she sang. Carley has an incredible family and circle of supporters who bring their passion and commitment to her treatment. When I wrote the book on Passion Capital, I was thinking about courageous individuals like Carley Allison. To top things off, she sang the national anthem at the ACC before the Leafs game on Sunday. Courage, passion, and inspiration together in one very exceptional young lady. Thanks Carley from all of us! “
Had an amazing time tonight at the game! Sang the Canadian anthem and got to hang out with Dion!
Today i met with an academic advisor to talk about what my options where regarding courses, since i have already, and will be missing lots of school. We decided that best option for me would be to put my courses online. I can still go to class if i am at school but if i am away there will be no penalty for my absence. I’m very excited that things are being worked out and i can have the flexibility to be home if i need to be.
As for how i am feeling… I have been ok these days. I struggle in the mornings to get out of bed, and sleeping is sometimes a challenge, but for the most part i’m pretty good during the day! Last night in the middle of the night i was a bit nauseous and i was having some trouble getting comfortable but I took my Anti nausea medication and i felt much better.
Some days when i’m at school i forget that i am sick, I wake up feeling not so good but then it goes away and i move on with my day. In some ways i can act just like any other normal student during the day. Its when the clock turns 9:00pm and i get the notification on my phone to take my chemo when it hits me. Its such a strange feeling. I will be at dinner with my friends, or hanging out with my friends and i have to go back to my room for a few minutes to take the chemo. Its just not something I ever imagined myself going through. But as i’ve said before, this is the situation and we need to deal with it head on. It doesn’t matter what it takes i know i will be better soon, its just a matter of time.
I will soon be having a needle biopsy to get a sample of the larger tumour pressing against my rib (which is not as painful anymore so i’m hoping its the medication working!!!) . I will keep everyone updated with the results
Last night i came home from Kingston for a doctors appointment this morning. The appointment was with our oncologist to assess my fever and cold. I have been feeling much better over the last few days but still not great. We started the chemo again on Sunday night so that could be the reason i’m starting to feel not so great again.
These days i find there’s no way to describe how i feel. I get upset about everything and just feel like crying but then i look at the big picture and i realize, this is just going to be another battle i’m going to win. Its going to be another trophy to put up on the mantle. “Conquered cancer round 2.” I know those word are far from being said but i do know there will be a time when i say them. Its not going to be an easy fight, and i cant say id be able to do it alone, but with the help of my friends and family i know its possible.